libra (a sort of ars poetica)

When I first started to write Little Boys’ Diary, I thought that everything is going to be just the way I imagined. Every poem should have been written with one specific memory in mind. One poem, one goal to achieve, and the whole project with perfect sense when combining the little pieces. I’m a bit troubled right now.

My next writing should be about a lollipop and a wood. I feel like being in the movie that Serghei showed me last night – Waking Life, that is. I’m just sitting here, with the one memory in my head and I’m not sure what’s wiser:

1. To let go, move on and write the next poem in the project. I could just come back to this subject whenever I feel like it. I’d still have the chance to finish when planned.

2. To stick to the plan and write The Lollipop Wood, whenever I’ll feel like doing it, postponing the whole project and breaking the deadline.

My dilemma can be funny and stupid and childish, but it’s not the first time I deal with this question. What to believe in? Rush or idleness? (Is this question even legitimate?)

Later edit: We should act as much as we think.